Happy Holiday

Love and peace to all

Wednesday weigh-in

Weighing in at 166 pounds today.

I lost 3 pounds and I am happy with that.

I have not exercised, unless you count housework. I do think I can count housework because I have been doing more than I normally do.

I joined FlyLady again. I am a FlyBaby again. Several years ago a good friend of mine told me about FlyLady and I was hooked. FlyLady helps to get your house organized and clean. It worked for me for a few months, until I got sidetracked and went back to my old habits. I think I jumped in too fast and tried to do too much too fast. Well I am trying it again but doing it slowly. The first thing FlyLady has me do is make my kitchen sink shine and keep it shinning and clean. I have been struggling through this one because my kids do the dishes Monday through Friday. They do not completely have the concept of a shinning sink down. We are working on this. I just can't try to do everything all at once. I have to remember I did not get in this pile of clutter in one day or even one week. So, I'll be a FlyBaby for a while trying to get out of this clutter.

I have not been eating any crack (wheat). I did accidentally got some wheat when we went to a new local fast food joint. I ordered two large fries and was wolfing them down because I was soo hungry. I bit into a fist full of fries and notice they tasted slightly different but swallowed them down anyway (an unconscious move). After I inhaled the fries I noticed bits of chicken nugget on the bottom of the package and realized I had eaten crack (wheat). The coating on the nuggets are made with crack (wheat).

Oh snap!

Now I have had a sore throat for a few days.

You never know where you are going to find crack (wheat)!

Oh, how I digress...

I have lost three pounds. And I am happy.

Yeah Me!

Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.
-Jim Ryun

Love and Peace

One week without wheat

Hey, Happy Holidays to all.

I have not been eating wheat and its products and it has been hard.

I watched my kids make cookies for a contest they were in. I even got in and helped my youngest. I was tempted by the aroma of the sugar and chocolate chip cookies. I actually put a small piece of sugar cookie dough in my mouth, as I usually do, then seconds later I realized what I had done ans spit it into the garbage. That small taste was enough to make me sigh with glee. Ahhhhh...

If my kids had seen me put that dough into my mouth they would have yelled, "Mommy NO, don't eat that!"The taste was sweet like a buttery cream. Some people can not understand how good cookie dough tastes. Maybe they're not addicted to the ingredients. My mouth is now watering with the thought of eating cookie dough.

It have gotten so bad that my DH(dear husband) has begun to worry about me. He sees the effect the wheat has on me. I have such a wide range of symptoms I think it scares him. With this last relapse, my symptoms have been more like the flu. Then I thought... Hmm, maybe I really did have the flu. And again, maybe not 'cause I don't think your skin, throat, eyes and ears would be itching. I have had a headache for the last week or so. My ears and sinuses are kicking my arse. I feel run down and achy. I could go on and on about the symptoms but I will spare you before I start talking about my digestive issues. Your lucky to be saved by my DH's voice in the back of my head saying "Damn, you will talk about anything."

It was so easy the first time I went off wheat. I think it was because I was so sick. I wanted to know if the wheat was the problem. However, when I found out wheat is the problem steering clear of it became a problem.

I have not seriously looked for any "Food addicts" meetings. A good friend of mine reminded me that if I needed help I should get it. She said I should not carry the stigma passed on from generation to generation that, "I can do this on my own , I don't need any help." She is right because I just had a vision of myself next Holiday season talking about how hard it is to not eat the wheat.

"Hello my name is Kim and I am a wheat addict"

The first law of dietetics seems to be if it tastes good, its bad for you.

- Issac Asimov

Love and Peace

Wednesday weigh-in

169 Pounds

Please excuse the toenail polish, time for a pedicure. Ugh!

I did not have a major weight gain or loss, which is okay.

I am struggling with my "crack addiction" (food addiction to wheat). I may need to check out some food addiction meetings.

Next weigh in Wednesday December 17.

"Addictions-
A long-standing compulsive behavior pattern may be called an addiction, and an addiction lives inside you as a quasi-entity or sub-personality, an energy field that periodically takes you over completely. It even takes over your mind, the voice in your head, which then becomes the voice of the addiction. It may be saying, 'You've had a rough day. You deserve a treat. Why deny yourself the only pleasure that is left in your life?' ...Taking the cigarette out of the packet and lighting it, or pouring yourself a drink were actions performed in complete unconsciousness."
-Eckhart Tolle, A New Earth

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